Sunday, October 28, 2007
Grand Finale :(
Always been thinking back.....the day i lost her is because she feels that i'm possessive, easily get jealous, unreasonable & don't trust her.
But to me, though i admit these are all my fault, i also feels that partly our breakup is because of the appearance of her buddy.
I never really believe that a guy & a gal can be buddy!
Maybe there are such cases but its only like 10 out of a 100.
On the 09th Oct 2007, she told me if i were to treat her the way when i first knew her, maybe she'll fall for me again.
On the 11th Oct 2007, i asked if she's Single or Attached now, she told me Single.
Never expect that within 2 weeks, she'll be attached to her buddy.
Cause when i asked her, she never denied this fact.
Anyway i guess things are between her buddy & her are quite obvious in everyone's eyes.
Just that me this stubborn fool simply refused to accept the fact only.
Her heart can really changed that fast within such a short period of time or maybe actually all along she's never truthful in her replies to me.
Imagining her in someone else's arms already makes me miserable & hurtful, let alone more details about it.
I guess all my friends are right.
I should have given up on her long time ago as it's not worth it.
Till today, i've lost her for 47 days & waited for 47 days.
Each day i'll fold a crane for her.
And today, i passed all the cranes to her.
Hope this will makes me get over her faster.
Other than my 9th ex, she's the only gal that gives me the motivation & goal in life.
I even have plans to wait till she's 21 & proposed to her & start a little family of our own but i doubt this day will ever come le. It's all along a wishful thinking on my part only.
I guess by knowing this piece of news, i should really die heart this time & not pin anymore hopes.
No more miracle in my life!
No matter how many stuffs i'm gonna do, how good i treat her or whatever & how much i luv her, she'll never ever come back to me anymore as now she already belongs to someone else.
But as long as she's living happily as i can see from it now, i should give her my blessings.
Since i can't give her what she wants & needs, i should really let go.
All my life, i'm fated to lose to: CAR + MONEY + A Real Happiness that guys can give but not me!!!
^ Gerald ^
`[10/28/2007 11:47:00 PM]
